So Thomas is not a former me or a multiple personality, the single sentence last night ("there's someone else inside my head + he's not living in this century") nails it down.
1) "Someone else," Thomas is not me.
2) "Inside my head," it's a human being (not the Holy Spirit);
3) "He's not living in this century,"
This opens the door to that which is beyond conception, operating out of my head he is locked into the world of Acts.
Here ends 4 years + 6 months of analysis + research. Time is unmasked as irreal; 1900 years are disclosed as aspects of one underlying Matrix; "Tears" + its Acts material is explained; my 27 years of writing the same themes over + over again fits into place; 2/74 + 3/74 is comprehensible, as is the overthrow of Nixon; the transtemporal constants have been explicated. When I got onto the "volvox" model + the push-pull system I was pretty close: the slowly revolving Matrix structure, sphere, + the way it enhances what we project. The negentropic total system with its stations + connecting links, forming a vast brain - what a Grand vision - how beautiful. The Brain Cannibalizing its earlier Law-bound Self to achieve total homeostasis + wakefulness for all its parts, so that all is Brain, not sub-Brain, interface for mind, all Lives, all Knows, all Participates.
But I'm under the stricture of silence, because to publish all this I'd have to tell about the immortal authentic apostolic Xtians operating covertly in us. Perhaps I should destroy the Exegesis. It's a Journey which reached its Goal.