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As Horselover Fat I survived, secure in my faith, keeping awake for the Savior who I know is soon coming, and may already be here. I have known the terrible side of God. But it was not Directed at me; it passed through me and possessed me to both reveal and defend: God as my strength and source, God knowing absolutely and Destroying, But not destroying me but for me. YHWH, the God of Moses, broke out in me and in "Valis" speaking as & by & in Sophia he warns the regime.

Valis was YHWH. The AI voice is Ruah. Ruah is the spirit of God. Therefore the AI voice is YHWH speaking to me. therefore the AI voice is Valis speaking to me. This seems never to have occurred to me before.

& then, too, as regards "Valis" dealing with YHWH (or as it is said, "the Godhead"), as I realized the other day, the Dialectic that Boehme experienced as the dynamic inner life of God - this dialectic is the whole theological basis of "Valis" even though it is put forth as a dialectic between two Gods: the irrational creation God vs. the rational Logos that enters the scene -invades as it were- and converts all, assimilates all to itself and triumphs. this is precisely Boehme's and Schelling's dialectic - this is Whitehead's process theology and only ostensibly seems to be Gnosticism. For the dramatic purposes and framework of the book this inner Dialectic would have to be put forth this way: externalized onto and into the world-stage.

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Jakob Böhme was an early 17th century Christian theologian. Friedrich Wilhelm Joseph Schelling was a 19th century German philosopher.