no wonder I sensed Diana, Queen of the fairies, & sensed fairyland!
2 sides of God? Solar? Lunar?
The secret known by the early Xtians : how to induce the secretion of a Mescalin-like auto-toxin, which I did, probably due mainly to stress & fear & awareness of imminent death -- plus the pentathol, plus the Gold Fish sign. Once this Mescalin auto-toxin is secreted, you find yourself in another realm : the Kingdom (re Castaneda.)
9:30 insight : the true Xtians (in abolishing the Law & the elemental powers) abolished the structure that keeps reality together. This is what the Messenger did. They abolished the hold reality had over them ("receiving the spirit") but this would short-circuit reality per se, or anyhow portions thereof. This is what I saw that I called
Valis. It was a