Dashboard | Log in | Sign Up | FAQ

Search results for Exegesis* exegesis* tractate* Tractate* "the exegesis"

Folder 01

001_page_162_thumb

folder 01 - 162

856

So I wind up knowing a lot more about world - world as we will later experience it, the world-experience of the future; + I no longer suppose that I was discerning God, + realize that I was discerning world instead; + I was at last led to God, but not by my intellect, not by Gnosis, not by myself at all; it was due to God's initiative, due to his loving-kindness; + what was proved was (once again) that all roads/ways/routes if pushed far enough lead to God. Hence (as I say) here is an example of how God the wise horn of the dialectic defeats its stupider foe inevitably in the end - this was an enantiodromia. It occurred when I realized that all that I had seen of God in 2-3-74 was a glint of color + a ripple of wind in the weeds of the alley, acting on reality; that Valis was not God but rather world ("the reality field") perturbed (from beyond creation) by God; but this did not yield knowledge of God direct, but only by inference; + that in fact 2-3-74 was not a theophany, but was a more sophisticated experience of world: creation pulled through infinity by reaching the end of (exhausting) its creative/entropic "splitting" (disintegrating; differentiating) dialectic process: entropic time converted into negentropic time. But this was still world, + Satan caused me to worship it... to fall victim to it, ensnared by it, taking it to be God; until I found that I had pushed my exegesis to infinity without result! + then I focussed

001_page_163_thumb

folder 01 - 163

857

on the very infinitude of my theories + saw (recognized) this as an instance of cosmogenic entropy; +, at last exhausted, prayed for release, + God did appear to me in theophany + took the field + blocked each + all theories, + ended my exegesis, not in defeat but in logical discovery of Him (which Satan had not foreseen). Thus intellect + knowledge on my part led to exhaustion + to destruction of that intellect + a recognition of the futility of what I was doing; I knew I knew nothing; + then God took the field + made his move that resulted in the enantiodromia that led me to him anyhow, as if I had wandered that way by chance; but it was his plan all along. + this was an instance of the dialectic that I had seen.

Finally I wind up with y=y; viz:Both these 2 following statements are true: 1) The intellect will not lead you to God. 2) The intellect will lead you to God. I am left with this paradox, which Satan did not foresee; he saw only statement (1) + did not see how God could convert it into its mirror opposite through enantiodromia. Thus God works + wins within the fallen entropic creation of the disintegrating "splitting" dialectic to win vs me + all in the end, by different routes. Thus the cosmic game between God + his adversary continues on; here was another victory by God; + in the end God will convert the dialectic itself into its opposite (through enantiodromia) + the game will end + God's victory + Satan's defeat, which God's victory vis-a-vis me echoes in microform.

001_page_164_thumb

folder 01 - 164

858

In a certain sense it can be said that God's victory consists in turning Satan's false creation -i.e. Satan's lie + delusion- into the real, which is exactly what I saw Valis doing; transmuting reality by transubstantiation into the real. Here is the secret + perpetual + ever-growing victory by God over his adversary as he (God) defeats him (Satan) again + again in the game they play - the cosmic dialectic that I saw. This is enantiodromia at its ultimate: the conversion of the irreal to the real. In my case it was the conversion of "the human intellect will not lead to God but will lead only deeper + deeper into delusion" into its mirror opposite: "the human intellect, when it has pushed to infinity, will at last, through ever deepening delusion, find God". Thus I am saved; + know that I did not start out seeing God (2-3-74) (which led to this 6 1/2 year exegesis), [Note] but, instead, wound up finding God (11-17-80) - an irony that Satan did not foresee. + thus the wise mind (God) wins once again, + the game continues. But someday it will end.

END

[Note] See separate envelope notes dated 12/10/80 p 10 passim

001_page_165_thumb

folder 01 - 165

1

Footnote, My flight expressed by the phosphene graphics was a movement faster + faster through cosmogenic-entropic time, ending in exhaustion + then the enantiodromia of entropic time - which had reached infinite velocity + infinite fragmentation ("splitting") which is to say the dialectic into negentropic time or synthesis, reintegration: hence I saw Valis [Note], the universe pulled through infinity, inside out, to freeze; this was 3-74. My exegesis was entropic-cosmogenic time resuming, speeding up faster + faster, "splitting" (fragmenting) farther + farther. Finally, it, too, ended in infinite velocity + infinite fragmentation (creativity, expressed as ever newer + quicker theories); it ended in exhaustion + then the enantiodromia of entropic time -the dialectic of my thoughts- into negentropic time + another reintegration (this was 11-17-80). Only this time I did not see Valis [Note], there was a theophany, + I was in the presence of God + God's loving-kindness; whereupon He explained everything to me. So events leading up to 3-74 + my experience with Valis had a parallel in the dialectic of my exegesis leading to 11-17-80 + the theophany of the Christian God of Love. The common ingredients of the two flights were: the cosmogenic-entropy "splitting" dialectic flight itself, until infinite velocity (time) + fragmentation (space) were reached, then exhaustion, then enantiodromia into negentropic time + "freeze" (reintegration) of,

[Note] World, not God (as I had supposed)

001_page_166_thumb

folder 01 - 166

2

so-to-speak "prajapati", but then comes a totally different outline: 1) 3-74. Valis which is world properly seen (morphological arrangement, growth + perfection + self completion in negentropic time, the entropic -flux- universe pulled through infinity - i.e. inside out). Compared to: 2) 11-17-80. The Christian God in theophany, who is other than world, who is transcendent. What I thought I had seen in 3-74! The summation (combining) of the two is (1) An acute knowledge of world based on 3-74 + the exegesis arising out of that experience. (2) Direct knowledge of God + God's nature based on the above elements; so that 3-74 led to the exegesis, which although it was a loss of negentropic, integrative time + a resumption of cosmogenic-entropic time, did lead (due to the infinite speeding up of time + the infinite breaking down of space until exhaustion set in) to the theophany I had supposed I had already had. Now it is possible to see how the Mary Jane fitted in; it added the final push to the dialectic in me, my exegesis (in other words as preceeded 3-74, my thinking) so that it reached infinite speed + infinite space, exhausted itself, + again as before, enantiodromia set in. This enantiodromia did not have to do with world, however, but had to do with the human intellect striving to find God - futilely. (Futilely until the last great enantiodromia occurred + God took the field to block the dialectic of my thinking himself, + thus revealed himself.)

Search

Exegesis

Are you tired of intrusive radio frequencies? Do you wish those bunny ears didn't require constant attention? Put your fears and frustrations aside with TransFoilent, the new metallic foil, designed for your specific transmission needs. Whether you need a little extra boost in signal or need to block out extraneous voices, TransFoilent makes the perfect tin foil hat! But don't take our word for it, here what others have to say.

*Best when used with your own discretion

Read pages that mention Exegesis in all works.

Graph of subjects related to Exegesis

Pages that refer to Exegesis:

folder9-page1 (Exegesis)
Page 1 (Exegesis)
Page 3 (Exegesis)
folder 22 - 029 (exegesis)
folder 22 - 030 (Exegesis)
folder 22 - 030 (Exegesis)
folder 22 - 030 (Exegesis)
folder 01 - 017 (Exegesis)
folder 01 - 072 (exegesis)
folder 01 - 099 (tractate)
folder 01 - 151 (Tractate)
folder 01 - 164 (exegesis)
folder 01 - 166 (the exegesis)
folder 01 - 167 (the exegesis)
folder 02 - 001 (Exegesis)
folder 02 - 052 (exegesis)
folder 02 - 065 (exegesis)
folder 02 - 066 (exegesis)

Subject articles that refer to Exegesis: